～～那些年～～

那些年～～那一晚～～在２０１０年１２月１８日的博克发布～如今～～又再次过了一年～～时光飞逝～一年又一年的溜走～试问我要到几时才会走出？我要过多少年的光棍节呢？谁会让我摆脱呢？这几年都忍着心将那些让我在“单人跑道”上转成"双人赛"的赛跑选手给拒绝了~~试问我都已经放下一切了为何内心的门还是封闭着？连我自己也不知道原因何在~再过几天就三年了~试问等到我毕业了~出去外头工作了~这个问题依旧健在？还是要等到看见你们结婚了问题才会解决？又或是一辈子也解决不了？又或是要等到遇到了我的Mr.Right?

２０１１年的那一晚～～我在assgmt的陪伴下度日～可以肯定的是～今年的我～～变得比去年更加的坚强～更加的喜乐去面对我的人生～～一个人去享受这世界的点点滴滴～～其实是很美好的～你们放心！我会过得很幸福！比你们还要幸福！无视我没关系～神是知道的～假装看不到我的存在没关系～看见我对你笑了却假装没看到也没关系～神一定有它的旨意行在当中～

今早～听了牧师所分享的信息～突然间又再次点醒自己～～要爱你的仇敌～他说神会在你的生命当中让你去学习～～用爱心去爱一个你完全无法去用自己的爱心去爱的人～去爱一个你无法忍受的人～去爱一个伤害你的人～爱～～是去忍受～～去接受～去享受～～试问我几时才可以办到去忍受那些不值得我去问候的人呢？（我知道你们自己也是无法办到的～尤其是＂你“看我的眼神简直让我感觉带点愧疚之类的）好多年的功课～～依然存在～～依然无法解决～～偶尔灵修时也会有这些得着～～试问是因为我自己没去努力？还是觉得我一看到那人就浑身不爽？已经放下了为何还会讨厌她？因为你的脸看起来很惹人厌？我们大家之间何时才有个了断呢？也许就继续那样像陌生人吧～～等待～～时间冲淡一切～～无奈的说～～＞．＜

MeRRy ChRisMas^^

wakaka~~i m reli quite long time dint updated any news at here~becos of wat??of cos is those assgmt n presentation reli make my life bc getting busier like hell...wuwu..anywy~i juz suddenly feel like wanna spend some time to tok n share abt smtg in tis important festival at here..ya~~it's Chrismas^^


Btw...Tis year i choose to celebrate tis festival in my hometown~2 years dint join the carolling at yp ler..tis year quite memorable to me cos it is raining while we r on the half way f4 carolling..We r rushing go inside to each of the cars after we fin sing the chrismas song (house by house)..We have some fun in front of the toilet..my fren holding the guitar n i m the one who in charge to sing a song by changing the lyris according to the person who went to toilet..We r playing a lot.chat a lot...i m quite happy to make them laugh n also to mix wif them as well bcos those of them is younger than me...i feel like i m juz same age wif u all while i mix wif u all ~~hahahha~~


The second day f4 carolling reli make my mood nt so gud when i knoe tat i got go to somebody house..i dunt knoe how to face them.i miss them a lot but...juz feel like i m nt qualify to meet wif them anymore...the second house f4 the carolling.pass ady~~i juz try to b normal..try to smile..n also share wif auntie abt my life.. i give her a hug..i take photo wif her..thx f4 alwayz treat me so gud n invite me go to find u..My heart will alwayz b wif u auntie^^<3~~hug hug~~

*tis morning,i m quite happy to c u n uncle went to church actually..i plan tat wanna go to chat wif u all..but i feel tat it is nt a suitable time n place..somemore at restaurant..even though we r juz very near wif each other(the table)~but i knoe tat there is a very farrrr de distance btw each other..i m nt dare to say hi wif u all but my eyes keep look at u all..(i knoe tat n i can feel tat u all got noticed me)..i tok wif my parents abt u all..i was get shocked while ur eyes look at my dad n me..i juz pretend smile to u~haizz.i HATE tat feeling!!!

*i knoe the readers who read tis blog might dunt understand wat i m trying to say...but juz let me share wadeva things at here ba~~ARHHHHHH!!!
Anyway~~I will live wif joyful in my life~I enjoy my Single life~I m quite happy to knoe u all^^thx God~~

In Conclusion~~MeRRY Chrismas to everybody(tis year de raining make me gt a bit sienzz to celebrate it esp 24th december..juz sitting at the cafe but quite boring becos dunt hv ppl count down at tat cafe..dunt hv the chriｓmas mood~~anyway~~Gonna say gud bye to 2011 soon~~Shud I say welcome to 2012??even though i m getting older??hahahha~~~Next year i m going f4 internship at yp here..isit gud news or bad news f4 myself?? May God Bless me^^