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不知怎么~~就想上来写些什么的~~时光飞逝~转眼间两星期的假期就仅剩下了一星期了~~好快~~好快啊~~这星期一定要好好地度过阿~因为下一次的假期可要等上要好久了~~跑步~~cm载我骑着摩托走走~~兜风~~上上网~~帮忙主日学~~练习吉他~~学着bad romance~~练习钢琴~~学着canon~拜访我癌症的sis~开着营会的会议~~最近~有感恩~有不开心的事~~haizz...

先说说开心的吧~~开心的就是~~~家里的一些问题终于算是解决了瓜~~耳根比较清静了~~只真诚地希望~~这份幸福~~这份温暖~~能够继续延伸下去~~真希望不要再听到“大人们”的事了~~

再说说不开心的吧~~也不知道干什么~最近有点胸口郁闷~~我到底怎么了？因为最近看<非城勿搅>及<我们约会吧〉看到太多了吗？让我的内心顿时感到空虚~寂寞~想有个人在身旁陪伴我~~与我分享生活点滴~还是因为最近被弟兄姐妹关心到我的“敏感”话题所以才那样？真的是不知怎么那么的巧合咯~那天团契的性质尽然那么的贴切与我过去遭遇~经历~~感觉好像自己在作答那样~~也观看了别人的想法~印象深刻的是"不要挽留~是没有好结果的"没错！对于一个容易在几年内改变态度的人是不值得留念什么的~不值得挽留！即时挽留了也不会长久~人的心变了就是变了~~唯一有点小后悔的事~就是我没在纸上面写到“作为第三者的人是永远得不到祝福的！只有鄙视的眼光！"想说的是..为何有些人可以那么的不顾忌别人的感受？放肆的在众人面前"搞高调"~可以成熟点尊重别人的感受吗！那种避开的眼神~~愧疚的眼神！别人打了招呼尽然以逃避的眼神对待！是心虚是吧？！！！算了~不说了~~一切都有神美好的旨意在当中吧~~

最近~~放下？接受？这个问题真的是一直在我的脑里头打转~~很多人都在问阿~~是不是很久没人关心这方面的问题了所以心情突然觉得好奇怪~~矛盾呢？emo+ing~~~想找人倾诉~可是~~还是不打搅你了~~明天会更好~~加油吧~~Joy^^

~顺其自然~

wakaka...finally fin my final exam ady n i stayed at sweet hometown f4 days ady..hmmm...gonna share my happy things first..hehe

it is a saturday nite...i felt happy becos i met someone who i miss her so much..one year more gonna miss her like crazy..i dunt hv any excuse to meet her again at her house..i dunt hv any zi ge to go to her house n visit them..chat wif them..i miss the time together wif her..share abt cooking things together.. prepare materials together..i reli appreciate wat they did f4 me..THX GOD..u all is a gud parents tat i never met b4..treat me so gud..anyway...tat nite..shake hand wif u..chat wif u..i m really bu she de to leave...i m really very happy n appreciate tat moment..

it is sunday nite..is a sad things tat i m gonna to share at here..ytd..my 大姑back frm sg..,my二姑 also come to my house...suddenly one auntie come to my house..掀起了a sensitive topic~~haizz...my mum, grandmum,all of their husband also join f4 tis topic!!oh no...our ears(all my sis)..gonna start to feel pain liao..haizz...又要听到大人们说那些大人话~~感觉在拍电视剧~~haizz..婚姻~~人嘛~~为什么结婚了在一起就出现那么多的问题？为什么？？真的对婚姻产生恐惧阿！！能不能只是永远的谈恋爱就好？婆媳战争..夫妻间的问题~~何时可以做个了断？为什么这些问题一定会存在？从小~~活在恐惧之中~~随时都可以听到耳边传来阵阵吵架声~~偶尔把我们这些可怜无辜的女儿卷入战争中~~haizz..人长大了~~感谢主这些无谓的战争少了~~耳根清静了~~可是有时还是难免阿~~！！大姐最近在发着牢骚~~可见得跟婆媳住在一起~~是多么辛苦的一件事啊！！~三姐是快要结婚的人了~为了点感情是在fb上面写到~为什么谈恋爱就一定要结婚的相关话题~~四姐呢~~也是快要结婚了~~最近因为订婚的事有点摩擦~~haizz..怎么大家都嫁了~婚姻阿！！你真的令人畏惧！！~昨天在fb看见一个中学同学放了结婚照了~还蛮惊讶的~~我真希望~~我以后的伴侣不会要求要与婆媳共处一屋~~

今天看了<非城忽搅〉~~深深觉得原来现代女性也真的是不希望自己以后会与家婆同住在屋檐下~~还记得看到有一个男子参赛者~她很孝顺~~他尽然就为了这个问题而选择放弃了走上前去牵那女子的手的机会~~他重视这个问题~换作是我~~如果我心爱的男子为了这个问题而离开我~~我想...也许...我会学着去调适..尝试接受住在一起的滋味瓜~~哈哈~~言之过早~~我怎么想那么远去了啦~没有蜜蜂在身边还想到那么长远去了~哈哈~不说了~~在这边发泄下感觉心情好点了~~

next..ytd nite i watch a movie tat intro by my frdsz(actually my sis ask me go to watch since few months ago le..but i feel tat movie name is very..==balia..<3 idiots>~~no wonder i watched it by ytd.it is worth to spend my 2 hour++ f4 watching tis movie...这三个主角是拿engineer的~让我看见了他们对友情的重视~不会因为个人的利益而出卖彼此~选择了自寻短见~其中一位超天才的~自作了一个会飞且有camera的飞行仪器~用许多原理来制造出许多令人刮目相看的机器~还能救即将死去的婴孩~每一个人都有权利选择自己要走的路~追求自己的梦想~自己要读的科系~不要因为被逼而选择自己毫无兴趣的科系~否则读出来也不会开心~而我..何常不是？？老实说~我真的不知道自己的兴趣~专长在哪里~我什么都不会~~我不像姐姐会对头发有兴趣而去做理发师~我不像妹妹做美容师~我没很热爱烹饪~~没像姐姐那么会用珠子来做成许许多多的吊饰~~我只会读死书~~死读书~真的觉得自己不是读书的料子~~混进大学里头为了就是拿到一张文凭让父母感到骄傲~光荣~~他们的女儿当中有位大学生哟！也许~~我只能作的就是乖乖把书读好~~文凭拿稳~顺利毕业~~做工~~赚钱还债~~孝敬他们~~好多的反思阿~~

last but nt least..我想~~我最终还是要学习~~学习不去习惯~~不去依赖~~不去过度担心你~~必须分清楚自己到底是谁？什么身份~~不能自私~~不要想到太过长远~~也许是怕失去~~太过珍惜~所以害怕~~失去的那一天~好啦~一切~~就让它顺其自然吧~~~^^XD

~~<点滴>~~

wakaka~~currently i stay at yp f4 four days ady..suddenly feel tat eating is a happiness things f4 me..wahaha..feel like happiness becos can eat so many things tat prepare by my dear mummmy~~<3

last wednesday..05-05-11..it is the time f4 theater performance..yeah~~i m so happy n excited f4 tat day..two weeks of rehearsal..always stay at campus until midnite..finally can say gud bye ady..kindly wanna say tq to my daughter,husband(if no u all,i also can not finish my part completely) n all of the actors...director..stage mananger,custom department n so on..i had learn many things by taking tis theater subject..get many frds also..sweet experiences..sad experience..抱怨..觉得烂费时间..觉得只是小角色不必太过注重..觉得被忽略..好多好多的经历..在被讲师称赞的那一询间~化为了乌有~觉得所牺牲的一切都是值得的~真得好开心~~兴奋到难以用英文来写下自己的感受了~THANK GOD..haha...原来区区`一个小角色尽然是如此的重要~还会被讲师注意到~让观众吓着了我的演技~哈哈~~真是觉得好不可思议噢~我的演技得到了赞许~thx f4 my husband n daughter.our effort is worth!!yeah~~

saturday nite..feel like a bit emo..haizz..smtg happened make me feel like i m so useless..ntg can do..ntg can help..juz keep speechless n 无奈 ==..feel tat wanna tell my frds tat i always share many things to him..but feel like it is over..shud nt share it out wif a frd..sg life is like tat..dunt hv partner can share..muz get usual in it..so juz keep it inside my heart..haizz..hopefelly everything will b fine ASAP..i scared fighting sejak kecil lagi..i scared to get marriage..but i desire to get in a relationship..人嘛~真矛盾~~(thx god i dunt hv any pain feeling or sad when c "them" went out together frm church..yeah^^.

yesterday(sunday)..ya..is Happy mum's day..sincerely wish all of the mum in tis world..haPPy mother's day^^yesterday ate so many things until my stomach feel like wanna boom ady..got a bit stomachache..wahaha..luckily feeling well b4 watch movie at bp wif my dear sis n her bf..wahaha..enjoy the movie time..me n my second sis shouted like crazy..haha..it is fun at all..after we back to yp..yamtea again at yp wif my family..i think tat is the 101 times we can stick together n yamtea together..(dad n mum yamtea together wif us)..feel like so happiness..i hope tat tis happiness can keep it until the end of the world..^^