2011年8月23日星期二

~~充实的生活~~
































wakaka~finally feel like relax a bit becos most of the assgmt almost submit ady~juz left one assgmt n 2 presentation to go~recently feel like my mood is nt tat stable..sometime will feel emo~~haizz..anyway~tat day 18th August i m so happy becos i had shouted a lot when i c Willber even though i m nt his fans~During tat week..i m desire wanna shouted n claimed ady~~i like the feeling of shouted..it can help me release my stress..anway~~Will Pan r so handsome xia^^



Few days ago,first time bc part time promoter at Mydin~i m kinda satisfied wif my sales during tat two days..almost help the company earn RM3000 in two days..even though it is very tired n my leg got 水泡ady~~but it is worth~~!!!^^nice experience f4 me~~i get some frdz by doing tis job~n i suddenly kinda satisfied wif my major at i take at MMU here~~i hope tat all of the customer tat i serve r very satisfied wif my performance n service~~yeah^^(i wanna share tis things wif u at tat time..but i control myself..stop to alwayz share wif u wadave things which happened in my life)


Today, she felt happy becos she realise tat he got click like n concern abt her wall post..she gt few days dint find him n chat wif him ady~she felt lonely esp midnite or b4 she fall to sleep..she felt like nt feeling well n get insomnia..she scared tat he will avoid her or 厌烦her~~she dunt knoe how to face him or tok to him as normal when she c him at exam hall there..she was regret tat she dint say hi to him once she wanna left frm exam hall~she hate tat feeling of strange..she was nervous again when she c him..anyway~~i hope tat she dunt too concern abt his things anymore~but~can she DO TAT!!!can she stop to care on tat person??God will knoe it^^lets take it easy n b joyful in ur life ba^^


Btw~~ytd i get some time to watch a drama which name <极速复仇>~long time dunt hv tat feeling of watching drama~~i m kinda enjoy the drama sambil eat my burgeR~~the relax feeling is awesome~~i like it^^anyway~~i feel like tis drama hv some deep feeling to me.."If u dunt forgive the ppl who hurt u b4..It will like a chain around ur neck tat lead u to a place tat u dunt wanna go~It'll lead u into darkness n desolution~u will become a slave to tat hatred and u will never truthly b free unless u freely forgive them~JOY~~u muz BREAK FREE~♥♥♥"~~in tis drama~~the main character help his brother n himself revenge to those who kill his brother n him b4..when he wanna kill the last person..no wonder he try to forgive wat he make b4..he bc pastor rite now...he knee at the floor n tell him...Plz forgive wat i done b4 becos i m innocent, i juz force by my boss..I will forgive wat u wanna done later(kill him)~~when the main character listen on tat words..he was get shocked n he started to 心软~~finally~~he decided dunt kill him~it is a touch drama^^

试问一个曾经害死你哥哥的人~你能轻易原谅那人吗?你能轻易放下过去的仇恨吗?你能不替你的哥哥报仇吗?她看了这部短片~深深的有所感触~~她在想~~为何她始终还是无法不去讨厌那些伤害过她的人~她在想~~怎么每次看见那人不理睬她~她就会无可奈何的不想再试着去原谅那些人了~~她到底要几时才能真正学会这门宽恕的功课呢?她觉得需要那些人的配合才会做到的~她觉得为何只有她在努力宽恕别人而那些人却可以逍遥的过着不理睬的生活~~可是试问那些人真的过的快乐吗?她可以不理的~她少两个朋友也不以为然的~~还有大把朋友咯~可是~大家不知道~只要她的内心里的那刻刺~那颗陌生人的刺没有夺取~心里总是会坦然不安的~anyway~~顺其自然吧~~交托给神^^

2011年8月15日星期一

~不能说的秘密~

最近~~她酝酿了几年的心情~突然间就像导火线那样在今天很想全部一次过引爆出来~最近课业的压力及打击~让她快喘不过气了~再加上这件事早已根深蒂固的在她内心深处的残绕她很久了~全部加上来足以让她窒息~她觉得她不能再不啃声~她觉得有必要让那些人知道这些日子来~其实她过得很辛苦~因为她做不到原谅的功课~你们可以视若无睹她~可以当作没一回事~可是她办不到~她每一次想到这件事的片刻时她就觉得很亏欠神~因她不能树立一个很好的基督徒榜样~因为她无法学习爱人如己~当爱你的仇敌~这些日子以来~她以为我学习到了~她以为她已经放下了~可是试问有谁人知道她的笑容背后隐藏着及许多的难过?~几许多的无奈呢?几许多对他家人的思念?是的~她是个失败者~那天在面子书玩了关于对生日的心理测验~她的缺点就是用情太深~太过专一占有欲强~个人觉得真的好像说中了~~就是因为这样~所以引致她需要一年多的时间才可以让自己好转过来~她抗拒了许多人~好几个朋友要她的号码~她都不给~无形中也伤害了他们~她~在这些日子里学习到了比一般人来的坚强~独立~~可是~坚强的背后~~试问多少人知道她是脆弱的~~别人面对类似问题都可以在短时间内平复起来~找个伴来忘记了过去~可是~对她来说~谈何容易?她真的恳切的希望~~希望她有一天能够将最熟悉的陌生人转换成最熟悉的朋友~她最重视朋友了~她喜欢带给朋友们欢乐~在她人生当中~她从来没有一位朋友是讨厌的~是视若无睹的对待她的~试问你们继续下去视若无睹她~你们会幸福吗?你们的心可以坐立得安吗?你们在神面前真的可以坦然?可以吗?请教教她怎么做到吧~~她的归属感很早就被吞噬了~她其实有时候是抗拒去教会的(有时候)~也许~这就是到目前为止暂时在她人生当中神给的磨练吧~如何跨出这个栏杆呢?她深信有一天一定会做到的~可是~现在就让她好好在这边喧嚣她酝酿多年的情绪吧~~加油~~JOY~~u can do it^^

无可否认~她的朋友大家都in a relationship了~而她~~还是那汪洋中的一条独自的船~继续独自往前行驶~打从心里地说~她~~对一位朋友有种心跳加速之感~每次看见那人她就很想躲避之感~她是怎么了吗?她应该知道论很多方面~年龄~距离~宗教~都有所偏差的阿~可是为何她为何不要收起那关心那人的心呢?感觉上~她好像不顾一切的陷入进去对那人的好感~她~~在想什么?真的很想知道阿~~好啦~畅快的在这里抒发了她内心的情绪~现在内心深处舒服且踏实多了~~就此搁笔~~^^~_~